Jamie M. Stocker

still thinking of you

i could write a book,,,and some could not be told here, we were each others first love,and spent four years together,nothing can change that,not time,not space,i am so thankful after all we went threw you and i became friends again,like best friends,i will hold you so dear to my heart as i always did,,and i will think of you often ,,i cant write anymore,im sorry,love you

Where to begin?  So many years of precious memories.  I remember your big skate jeans, your Vans shoes, every hair color & length you can think of, hemp necklaces, flannels, backwards hats, chain wallets.  I remember watching you skateboard…cheering you on & being a nervous wreck that you would get hurt.  Your love of hockey & Sunday football.  The love you had for art, the pictures you use to draw for me, you almost went to art school, you wanted to become a tattoo artist.  You always dreamed so big and were so adventurous.  I always admired you for that.  You had an appreciation of music & I remember every musical phase you went through.  I remember your Grandma saying one time that you march to the beat of your own drummer.  I totally agree and will never forget that.  I remember how frustrated you got with me trying to teach me to drive your stick (by the way I still can’t do it, lol).  How you gave me the first taste of how stubborn boys can be because you always refused to stop & ask for directions.  I remember how you stomp when you walk, how loud you snore.  We experienced so many things together…school, proms, getting our license, all the cars you had, speeding tickets, graduation, concerts, meeting your dad, first jobs, getting you your first dog for Valentines day, moving out on your own.  I remember climbing trees together, playing hacky sack in the church parking lot, you driving to my house in a snow storm, you teaching my niece how to box & throwing her up in the sky, painting your room Colts blue.  We grew up together, had ups, downs, gains & losses.  You had the biggest heart & were by far the most romantic person I knew.  I remember us celebrating every month we were together the first year, you spoiling me with gifts & flowers just because, you making holidays so special & exciting.  I loved it when I would come to work in the morning & find a message on my voicemail that you left in the middle of the night telling me you were thinking of me.  I have the promise ring, all the jewelry you ever gave me, many pictures, drawings, cards & notes.  I never ever doubted your love for me.  Our love was pure - before we were ever hurt or scarred or built up walls.  We loved Romeo & Juliet and were head of heels for each other like that.  You were & always will be such a big part of me and I am so blessed that you were part of my life.  We mutually agreed we would always have a piece of each others heart, but I wish I could look you in your beautiful eyes and tell you all this again.  You have been my angel so many times and now you will forever be.  I will always love you, Jam. Love, Courtney

I remember when Jamie was re0united with his Father and our family, and Jamie came over to the house in Groveland to go swimming with us. He was so happy to see family that he hadnt seen for a long time. Cathy & Leo...thank you very much for bringing Jamie closer to us.